My gosh, i haven't posted anything in forever!!
Well the wedding is in six days. i really can't believe it's only six days away. i am more happy than words can express. i love that boy more than anything in the world.
Some very interesting news though, in 6 days, i will also be the wife to a sailor in the U.S. Navy. yup, Seth joined the Navy!!! i'm very nervous, obviously, but at the same time i'm inredibly excited. we're going to get to travel SO much and experience so much that's it's INSANE. i'll finally live on the beach, like i've wanted to my entire life. i can go to school somewhere that has marine biology. i can pursue my dream, as he pursues his. My God is SUCH a big God. I'm going to try to keep this blog as updated as i possibly can. i'll post pictures of the wedding, also (: night lovies <3
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Future
my life is about to get a lot more interesting.
i will be married in three months to the most wonderful man i've ever met and i couldn't be happier. he's incredible. i wish i could be half the person he is.
i'm so jealous of him. he's so talented and i will never understand how he doesn't see it. he walked into the ctc and got 3 roles practically handed to him. three MAIN roles. i've been trying to get a lead for 5 years and i can't manage it. sometimes i find myself resenting him. but i shouldnt. he's my fiance. i just wish i could have half the talent he has. i'm so in love with him.. and i want him to be happy.. i just don't get it. why can't i succeed.. why am i not good enough.
and on top of me having TERRIBLE self-esteem, i am now going to be an aunt in august. my seventeen year old twin sister is pregnant. right around the time of my wedding. and my 18th birthday. so now i'm not sure how any of that is going to turn out. or if anyone is going to know i'm around anymore other than Seth.
i just wish i could make something of myself. i wish i could be someone. i wish i could show everyone who ever thought i wouldnt make it, that they were wrong. but i can't seem to. i don't know if i should give up, or keep trying. but i'm so sick of failing.. so sick of it..
i will be married in three months to the most wonderful man i've ever met and i couldn't be happier. he's incredible. i wish i could be half the person he is.
i'm so jealous of him. he's so talented and i will never understand how he doesn't see it. he walked into the ctc and got 3 roles practically handed to him. three MAIN roles. i've been trying to get a lead for 5 years and i can't manage it. sometimes i find myself resenting him. but i shouldnt. he's my fiance. i just wish i could have half the talent he has. i'm so in love with him.. and i want him to be happy.. i just don't get it. why can't i succeed.. why am i not good enough.
and on top of me having TERRIBLE self-esteem, i am now going to be an aunt in august. my seventeen year old twin sister is pregnant. right around the time of my wedding. and my 18th birthday. so now i'm not sure how any of that is going to turn out. or if anyone is going to know i'm around anymore other than Seth.
i just wish i could make something of myself. i wish i could be someone. i wish i could show everyone who ever thought i wouldnt make it, that they were wrong. but i can't seem to. i don't know if i should give up, or keep trying. but i'm so sick of failing.. so sick of it..
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